What If?

A connection with God only comes through belief and the best thing is that He’s already made it all possible for you and me to have that intimacy with Him.   My new life started with just a “what if”.   What’s your what if… So what if I asked him into my life?  What if I have a million questions?  What if I don’t have the slightest idea what to expect?  What if my friends don't accept my choice?   What if I want to be gay and still want a relationship with Him?* There’s an answer for everyone of our “what ifs”.  Here’s the thing, I just mentioned some really good “what ifs” and they may be the same as yours and you may have one or several that are unique to you…. that’s cool, but the most important thing you need to remember is this ‘relationship’, this ‘love’ I keep talking about and having a difficult time finding the words to accurately even come close to describing can make all our “what ifs” seem insignificant BUT you’ll find that each one will be answered in God’s time and in a perfect way. “what if I want to be gay and still want a relationship with Him?”  I’ve mentioned this specific“what if” because it seems its a very common “what if”.  The conversations I’ve been having almost always bring up this subject.  Because we don’t see the origin of this “lifestyle”, we assume that it’s not open for a “choice” discussion.  It wasn’t a choice any of us made,  it can’t be changed by any human action, therapy , drugs…any kind of human intervention.  So we accept it and make the best of it while also wanting to acknowledge our Creator.  Oops, did I say our Creator…. If you’re calling yourself a Christian and living a gay life, I’d challenge you to take a few minutes and think about how you see His Word.  Its says God is the Creator of all things visible and invisible.  Stars, the heavens, earth, animals, bugs, trees, water, bugs, man, woman and  he called it GOOD, even the bugs!!!  Here’s where I’m seeing scripture being altered to appease our own decisions.   We’re created in His image, created to personally commune with God.  The thing is each of us need to look at the big picture, to see the entire panoramic view of our lives with a relationship with Him, the way God sees our lives.   There are decisions we each have to make to be able to have that relationship.  Here’s the really neat thing, YOU can ask Him what He wants from a relationship with you, or start reading His Word.  It’s all there in black and white.  Every person that has that kind of intimacy with God has in some way, shape of form had to stop something, change habits, alter their thinking to get close to Him.  On our own we have tendency to follow the world,  its desires and distractions.  Those are the “things” that keep us from Him….. talk to Him.  

Any relationship starts with conversation.  A simple “hello” or “what if”.  There’s nothing wrong with asking questions. After asking for help, I asked questions like… why me?  Here’s the thing… I suggest  that if you do the “what if” thing,  expect an answer,  cause you’ll get it!! You don't have to be in a grand cathedral or hidden away in a monastery to talk with God.  He’s made it a lot easier than that.  Just start talking right where you are, school, work, at the gym, at home, in the car or at the bar!  It doesn’t matter where you are physically, it matters where your heart is…. I used to talk to myself quite often with very few resolved conversations lol.  I’ve stopped that and always talk to Him.  He isn’t a God that sits in heaven choosing who to talk to… He’s that good good Father that listens!  

Imagine,  He knows your needs even before you talk to Him about them.  That sounds a bit weird at first but think about it, God is all knowing.  It’s true, He knows our every need but like I said previously, we’ve been given free will, in everything.  He may know every one of our needs but its what’s in your heart He cherishes.  Here’s the thing, what’s in your heart and how do you prioritize your needs.   Remember He’s here for you.  

God is described as a good good Father.  I continue to learn that His wisdom is sooo far above our understanding.  Open up a conversation with Him, some call it praying, I call it talking to my Father.  Share with Him what’s in your heart,  it can be your anger like I shared years ago, it can be questions about being gay, not being gay, love, family… what ever… how about asking what He sees in your life…. or just a “HI”.  Open up communication with Him,  remember it’s not a one sided conversation, expect a rely.  The replies I receive from God don’t always come in a direct verbal response but through other people, events,any situation that God can use to give me an answer.  What I love about that is I’m always looking for His reply in everything I’m doing.  Always thinking about Him and how I’ll hear back from Him. Then when I do receive that answer through something or someone in my life, it reassures me that He’s with me in all I do and can use anything or anyone to  let me know I’m not alone.   Keep yourself aware of your surroundings and expect His reply. 

what if…once again, the ball’s in your court.