Crazy Scary
When I asked Jesus into my life it was a high I never wanted to come down from (and haven’t), but things inevitably pop up that try to burst that perfect bubble.
The most powerful gift we’ve been given is to be able to talk with Jesus directly…. prayer. You can pray for friends to be open to you and your new life in Christ. Just as we have the free will to make our choices, so do they. Some will listen and some will walk away…it can be painful, as I’ve said before, just because I have Jesus as my Lord doesn't mean that life will be with out pain and challenges. With each experience or challenge I know without a doubt that He’s with me every step of the way.
Then there are the new friends being put into my life. WOW! It’s amazing the understanding, support and acceptance you receive as your welcomed into God’s family. It’s exactly what we’ve been told to do… love as Jesus does! I’m not proud of my past and I have to admit that I think that my new friends are more willing to see my past as my past then I do… but I can see that Jesus is working through those feelings! If you could see the huge grin on my face right now, it would tell it all!!! Jesus is in every aspect of my life. He doesn’t leave anything out. It’s so comforting. In almost all the decisions in our lives the first step can be daunting… sleepless nights, zits, various forms of anxiety, the proverbial pros and cons list, rationalizing all the options or just doing it. Hum.. should be a logo…. how about, standing at the top of a ski slope for the first time, board all waxed and attached to the two appendages at the end of your legs, feeling like the entire world is watching YOU and waiting to see if you’ll wipeout…and what’s it going to feel like if you do!! Or that moment when you make the decision to move out on your own for the first time. SWEET!! You can make all your own decisions, do whatever you want, whenever you want and hang with whoever you want !! Then there’s that little bug in your belly… you pay the rent, the bills, then there’s the food and don't forget the car insurance! SCARY!
It can be crazy scary and pretty lonely when you open up and let others actually see you and be witness to how you make decisions. It can make you feel pretty vulnerable and sadly in a lot of situations peer pressure clams too many great choices. I have to admit I felt all that when I decided to share with you all that’s going on with me…it’s no different with this choice.
We live in a world of social media, and that’s created a society that has a tendency to worry more about what others are thinking and pleasing them than doing what’s right for ourselves. The very idea that you may be entertaining the possibility to be different and being honest with yourself can be crazy scary!!! I’ve been there. The thing that’s different about this choice is that once you make it… here it is again… you’ll never be alone! Just like every decision the first step only takes your breath away for a moment, then it happens, you start breathing again and from that very second you begin to reap the rewards of your decision… a personal relationship with the most high God!!!! Doesn’t that amaze you? It still does me!!! TheGod who created everything, knows and loves you and me!! LOVES you and me!!!
One of my favorite definitions of CHOICE is “care in selecting”. Man, that definition is so appropriate in so many ways! Jesus “chose” to be crucified, to die for us!! He had you and me in mind when He suffered and gave up His life. He did that to enable us to CHOOSE Him. All our offenses against God, our sins and all the punishment that goes with them… gone. Jesus took all that on Himself so we wouldn’t have to, so we can actually be what we were created for, God’s own. The decision to ask Jesus into your heart will change you from the inside out! It did me!
He saw all my strengths and gave me the opportunity to use them for Him, then the weaknesses…some He helped me to change into strengths and others He wiped right out of my life. Wait, that kind of sounds like I’m perfect now!! WRONG! LOL!!! I’m a work in progress, my relationship with God is refining every day! We all can experience His amazing transforming love and the awesome thing is although His love is the same for everyone He guides us individually to where we need to be, where He wants us to be. The most incredible thing is that God already knows you, He knows your heart. I heard that! lol… you’re thinking that if God already knows you and your heart then why is all this about asking Him into our hearts necessary? Good question. That’s easy, God is all knowing, the Bible says that He knows every hair on your head. He knew you before you were conceived. He gave up his son for you. He has a place in His heart for you… there’s no question of His love… for you, none. The question lies with us. Do we have a place in our hearts for Him? Here’s the thing, I can tell you that God loves you and He wants your love. Since I’ve asked Him into my heart and life, there aren’t any words to explain the relentless love I’m receiving. I look back at my walk with Christ and I’m so humbled and amazed to see the power of God’s presence in my life. He’s actually changed me with his love!! Can you imagine the power of that kind of love to change a person from the inside out? You know, I understand God is love, but until you actually experience the life changing power that that perfect love has, it almost sounds like it’s too good to be real, trust me, no trust Him and ask Him into your heart and find out for yourself.