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The truth is, we do have a choice with how we handle our lives. It’s personal, and needs to come from the heart. No one can force you to
make this or any choice in your life, it all starts with you. I want you to know that when I made the choice to follow Christ, I did it blindly, without any knowledge of what was going to happen if anything. The fact is, as hard as it is to believe, walking away from these desires is doable and the best thing is you won’t do it alone. I’m humbled everyday knowing that He not only loves me but
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through that love protects me and guides me every moment of my life. I would have been the first person to say it’s impossible to deny those desires and feelings… but the closer I grow in my relationship with God…. it all dissolves! Don’t ask me to explain it…. the simple truth is God loves you and nothing is impossible for Him. Bottom line is God has done all He can to give us the opportunity to experience profound joy and peace now and forever with Him.
◎SIDEBAR. Like I’ve said numerous times already, I wasn’t happy with what I was dealt. I’ve just realized that I never
told you why I wasn’t happy with being gay. It wasn’t because I was alone cause I wasn’t, I had 2 long term partners and a lot of friends. My life was pretty cool in gay
terms. But there was something else I wanted more than anything and I knew that I’d never have it if I continued on the path I was on. But the ironic things is that I don’t know if I really could put that “something” into words, I didn’t like the feeling that I was different, I wanted a family. I grew up in such a wonderful family, I wanted it for me.
At the time, I wasn’t knowledgeable about the Bible, I knew the basics… but something deep in my being knew something wasn’t right. It wasn’t until I started reading the Bible that I learned that God doesn’t honor same sex life. But He loves each of us to a level that we can’t even fathom. Then on top of all that He made a way for us to overcome this life if we choose to. Insuring a place with Him forever!
It’s so easy to cherish what’s right in front of you and not see things the way God created us to see them. I’ve learned that my fear of God, His purity brought me to a place where I’d do “anything” to be right with him. Like I said, I went into this blindly… what was “anything” ? Here’s my take on “anything”, we’re here on this planet for what, 100 years if were lucky…and what we do here for those 100 years give or take, will determine what happens for the rest of eternity. Yep, we determine whats going to happen, not God, not your partner, not your friends or
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family..YOU! Honestly I understand yours may not be to turn away from your desires and feelings and that’s your choice, but know that we do have the ability to do what ever we want with those desires even if we choose to turn away from them. I know it sounds impossible, but what I’ve experienced is that the closer your relationship grows with Jesus, it all changes!!! You change. It’s so cool!
Following Christ insures we won’t ever be alone. You’ll never go through anything alone! EVER.
Just as in any relationship, each of us want to know that we are the most important part of that partnership. The center of universe, the reason for living… yah, you get it. I
can tell you that I’m in a relationship that almost can’t be described without tears….it’s a love that never fails!!!!
The good thing about growing pains is that, you grow and that’s cool. The bad thing is that they also can be painful and that stinks, but there’s God again… He’s told us that yep we’ll have pain in our lives, its a part of life and growing. The great thing is that if you ask Him in your life, He’s with you to get you through that time. SWEET!
It’s so interesting that the perception of God through a gay person’s eyes is usually judgmental and damning and that’s just how my perception of God was and that’s exactly why I’m writing….that’s a lie from satan, that’s exactly what he wants you to think so you don’t understand what Jesus is really like. You were created in God’s image, to walk with Him in the cool of the day. He isn’t that dictator that sits on a throne condemning people, on the contrary, He isn’t separated from us or beyond our reach. He sees you as His own, He knows all the distractions in front of us, He knows our strengths and weaknesses, He knows what it will take to pull you from the lies that keep you from His love. God’s laid everything out for us to choose or reject (there’s that free will again), and then doesn’t stop there but shares with us just how things will play out with the choices we make. Dang, think about it… He loves us, He wants our love, He’s done everything to make it possible, then He gives us the freedom to choose the way we live our lives and shows us the outcome of our choices!!!!!
We have the controls.